TIME HEALS !!!

Now that I have learnt to keep my emotions aside and be more practical in my outlook, I can claim that time does heal; provided we give time to it. Because only when we are through the healing process, we realize why, how and where the things went wrong; whether to inculpate the circumstances which prevailed that time or ourselves. We are in a habit of blaming others for our miseries and often tend to ignore that we ourselves can also be the reason behind them.

I "usually" considered myself a good person, one that takes others' feelings into consideration. I am not selfish. But now when I ponder, I realize that there have been times where I thought I was doing the right thing but actually I overlooked that I may have been hurting someone in the process.

There is(or was I don't know) a particular person in my life whom I hurt because I wanted to protect. At least this was what I told myself. Now when I look back, I understand that the only person I wanted to protect was myself - protect myself from any worries that I might have faced if that person ran into troubles. We feel it is normal to make decisions which we think are the best for the ones we love only to realize later that we were doing what was best for us. I did this more than once but finally at the end I had to pay the price for it. It was the time in my life when my options were limited and instead of fighting for what I wanted, I chose to walk away. In nutshell, I escaped the situation rather than dealt with it. I thought I was protecting someone I cared for but the only person I was protecting was me. 

After a lot of self-contemplation and soul-searching, I have owned up to my faults but I guess I won't be getting a chance to apologize to the person I had hurt. The choices and decisions I made back then had haunted me for a long time (and I guess will continue to do so) but I am trying to seek closure from that experience.

I always thought time would heal the profoundest wounds. Now I can vouch for the fact that wounds don't heal themselves unless we address them. We, instead, try to ignore them and push them so deep that we somehow convince ourselves that we are alright. I too thought I had healed but actually I was eluding them. For the first time I have started healing. It is not easy but I am getting there. It has made me wiser, stronger and more intellectual who believes that time can heal even the deepest of wounds because there is always a reason behind every occurrence in our life...!!!

Remember, 

"Hum sab to rangmanch ki kathputliyan hain jiski dor upar waale ke haathon mein hai"

(We are just puppets of a stage who are controlled by our masters sitting above)